Blogge Flash... Thus Spaketh the Fairest Sex on a Seemingly Hopeless and Silly Situation...
The following conversation was also "heard" through an electronic grapevine - any resemblance to any persons living, not living or pretending to be alive is purely accidental... (names changed to protect the strange)
Two Steps Beyond: Hi, went out last night and bumped into a guy I used to fancy. He made it clear that he was keen. Moved on to next bar and danced my arse off. Moved on again and bumped into another bloke who kept saying encouragingly ‘nice things’. Lo and behold, I bumped into the guy I almost went out with before Lord Vader. And so the story goes - it was one of ‘those’ nights!
On the Edge of Reality: That’s sounds promising – it’s either a feast or a famine and it sounds as though you were receiving a feast!
Two Steps Beyond: If Lord Vader was not in my heart I would have been keen. They are out there. We need a few of those encounters just to put it into perspective. However, it all just adds to the Big Strange. Still, it was nice…
On the Edge of Reality: In spite of all this nice and strange stuff, Lord Vader seems to stick in your heart and mind. There’s something else to figure out before you can move on.
Two Steps Beyond: It seems cruel really, because I just want silly Lord Vader. Phuk phuk phuk!!! The universe is playing with me and trying to teach me a lesson. I guess all of those guys are nice and it would be so easy to jump one to push away some lonely times. Guess it was what Lord Vader did. Ewww, I don’t want to think about that. I think that there were things Lord Vader should have learned too. Only he didn’t and now we’re both stuck. I still feel that connection to him though, and it’s very strong. I think he must feel it too or I am just in tra la la la la land. Anyway, same story eh. Got to learn from this, but what is it?
On the Edge of Reality: Dunno, ‘tis unknown at this time. Maybe you had to fully commit and move in, make that change and just get on with it.
Two Steps Beyond: Yep, I think so too.
On the Edge of Reality: No one can literally wind the clock back but at least you can talk honestly together the next chance you get – you’ve got the skills.
Two Steps Beyond: And if I get the chance… he would need to make that happen. One day he will I guess… The universe showed me last night that those from the past come forward again and again and again…
On the Edge of Reality: You’ve been shown in a most hurtful way where your resistance is in relationships, now you have to change that. We know what they do, but we have to know what we do to phuk it up.
Two Steps Beyond: Yep, it is sad to have to learn the hard way…
On the Edge of Reality: Relationships are about a deep commitment to growth. We’re supposed to recognise and support each other through our stuff, and most people don’t do that. We fail each time in spite of knowing better. It’s time to risk a new level of experience with this relationship stuff. Other life aspects are okay or at least, are manageable or have solutions.
Two Steps Beyond: You’re right. Such a simple philosophy. I will hold onto that one. My wish is to put it into practice so as it is above that particular learning level. I’m sure the universe will provide the opportunity.
On the Edge of Reality: Simple is good. Hearts hurt and make us crazy (that goes for men and women, it’s not gender specific!). Everyone is expressing their learning, their baggage and what they need to learn, particularly so when engaged in an intimate relationship.
Two Steps Beyond: I feel better about that. At the end of the day it is simple and I never really looked at how that can work.
On the Edge of Reality: Relationships are fertile ground for expressing and acting out. We have an obligation to ourselves first and foremost to do better than that.
Two Steps Beyond: Yep, and my part needs work.
On the Edge of Reality: I’m still lazing in bed, have a slight headache but hunger is about to propel me toward the kitchen. In spite of that, relaxing somewhat has made it easier to think.
Two Steps Beyond: Yep, a good day for it. In some ways it’s good to relax today but it’s accompanied by the constant hammering at my heart’s door.
On the Edge of Reality: We are all flawed, that’s why we’re here (whoever thought that up needs shooting, the sick bastards!). Some of this life stuff is very very painful. Here’s a hint - when we are ‘wrong’, it hurts.
Two Steps Beyond: Good point, I hope Lord Vader can be aware enough to hurt!
On the Edge of Reality: We are late bloomers who are still laying down basic relationship structures. So it’s inevitable that we attract men who have no structure in place. It’s hard to build on such flimsiness. A veritable House of Cards!
Two Steps Beyond: Shit! So we get the hard ones, as we need the hard lessons, as we didn’t learn and nor did they, and yet want the same thing, phuk…
On the Edge of Reality: So it would be easier lifting it to the next level than continuing with poor building materials. The saying goes, “when the pain of not changing is greater than the pain of change, it’s time to change”
Two Steps Beyond: Yep, change for the good is better. On to the next level!
On the Edge of Reality: It’s like a multi-level game. We’re supposed to get better as we work through each level/layer. No more bullshitting others, and ourselves - it’s time to raise the level of expertise!
Two Steps Beyond: Well, I had to go back a level because I didn’t get enough points. I didn’t find the right door and worse, the magic heart shield and sword of redemption, but I’m ready now.
On the Edge of Reality: Yep, back to the last checkpoint. But are you ready to proceed without the sword and shield? (because we never really needed them)…
Two Steps Beyond: Are you sure?
On the Edge of Reality: Yes, today I am sure. The sword and shield are a symptom/manifestation of the problem!
Two Steps Beyond: Okay, so it’s a game of skill and blind faith…
On the Edge of Reality: Just skill and “faith” because ‘blind faith’ is for those who are still completely ignorant. Think of how you use a sword and shield in a relationship – for protection or destruction? The Question is, what do you need protection from and what are you destroying? Love?
Two Steps Beyond: Hmmmm, should I get the sword and remove the whore’s heads, he he. You are right - Love should be the magic. Please can I have another turn? The dragon ate my last card…
On the Edge of Reality: Time for a new game to put new learnings to work (and the good news is that it works with the old players too!)
Two Steps Beyond: It would be good to play a new game with the original player. Then the lesson would be well understood by the both of us. Faith and Hope…
On the Edge of Reality: Faith and Hope – another simple equation! Leave Charity at home because she’s an absolute cow to go out with!
Two Steps Beyond: He he! I wish they could leave Pandora’s box alone too.
On the Edge of Reality: Ha ha he he! That made me laugh so hard, coffee came out of my nose!
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